The first few weeks are terribly hard.
The only way I stayed away from alcohol in the beginning is by solid structure. Each hour was accounted for.
No matter what happens in the day, good or bad, resorting to alcohol just keeps us stuck in addiction. Creating new pathways to deal with the good and the bad is crucial. It feels foreign at first but after awhile it is the new normal. You will look back on this struggle one day and be thankful that its over. I believe in you. Believe in yourself and put a plan in place that will keep you sober. You can do this. You were doing it. Just get back to doing!
