Thank you, SarahSmiles12. I very much appreciate your responses and the insight you shared.
I shared all of what has occurred with my therapist and while speaking out loud and going over my options in a calm manner and safe environment, I found it very helpful 👍, one more step in the right direction on healing and becoming more and more self reliant. Since 2017, with injuries, illness, major surgery and limitations caused by those, I am slowly but surely finding my way back to normal, sans little if any support from the spouse. I will get there.