Hello 124, another Mama here who understands and has been there. My son was a heroin/meth user/addict for 8 years. I found my life again after finding this site, and receiving so much help from the forum members who had "walked the mile" before me. As it stands, I realized that I could not change my son, though I did try my hardest and spent way too much time, money and effort to no avail. It took him 8 years and many attempts to get clean, but one fine day, he decided it was time. This all happened without my intervention, and he is now clean and sober 4 years on June 13 and runs a detox facility near the beach, and is getting married in August! I will say that the biggest miracle was allowing my son to live his life and letting GOD in my heart. Once I truly let go, I found peace.
Hugs to you. Sending prayers for your peace and strength.
TT