I too, had to let my son live his life his way, however, I cannot share it with him.
Like most mothers I imagine, I tried to rescue him, and only made myself ill. I had no choice but to step back, and let him get on with it.
Our addicts are more resourceful and resilient than we think, but if we continue to take care of their needs, they have no reason to change.
Try and take as good care of yourself, as you would your son.
Much Love
Bute x