My experience only...
During my 29 year drinking "career" I thought about stopping hundreds of times. Even managed to moderate and/or stop for short periods of time. Even had some "farewell" drinks. Each and every time I came back to it and hit it harder and harder each and every time. Eventually, all of my mind games led me to physical dependence. It came down to get sober or die a slow, miserable death. That was now nearly 12 years ago. At age 55 I now have the kind of life (sober) that I could only dream about when I was 25 and actively drinking. What saved me from myself, was a total, absolute surrender. No more thoughts of moderation or bargaining with myself. That surrender was the ONLY thing that ever worked for me.
Ultimately, it's your life, your decision to make. We can offer our opinions and advice, but in the end you'll do whatever you want to do. I do wish you well. Maybe someday you'll be able to share your experience and help someone else along the way. That's all any of us can hope for.