Great advice, wow, your post sounded so like the kind of BS I used to come up with - and Jase this was only just over two weeks ago so believe me it's all still very fresh in my mind! Honestly living like this, is just exhausting isn't it? You know you need to stop because you have said so - and that's you speaking -perhaps trust yourself more - you are a good person. I just wanted to add that only a week or so ago I remember my brain hurting, feeling full of panic and anger that I was never going to drink again- almost my entire body was fighting against making this decision. It was so much the right decision to take - but it feels hard - but it is not hard and it is possible!