Day 5. I'm going back to work. It will be 2 years in June that my restaurant had closed. I had worked there 15 years, i got a bit depressed for a few months. I had interviews the week we shut down for covid, interviews cancelled, covid lasts another year. My drinking got worse, I went on an SSRI, and i started to make an effort to actually quit. It's been a journey. I began applying at restaurants a couple of days ago and have two interviews. I'm scared to put myself out there again. Getting the interviews, thinking about going to the interviews...and made me want to drink tonight. Also the thought of getting off my shift and not having a drink scares me. I'll deal with that one when i get there. I am excited to join the land of the living. But new obstacles to overcome and work through.