I just wanted to thank everyone for being so helpful and supportive....never being here I did not know what to expect but I am very greatful that I found a place like this. I never people I never met to be so warm and understanding...it gives me more hope for humanity in general and I thank u all for that... I decided once I go back to school to try what most of u suggested and go to an alanon meeting for at least 6 sessions... It was really helpful to hear what Jessica NJ said about going for myslef and not trying to help my mother because subconciously I think that is exactly what I was expecting...I guess I should try to focus more on me for now on..even though this pattern will be hard to break...thanks guys so much for your advice I am extremely greatful
