I really don't think I will drink. But the thought of it does happen when I am feeling really PAWSY or whatever the **** this is. I worked so hard to get here. I am just getting really impatient with feeling so unwell. I get so distraught because I made the choice to quit drinking for my health and wellbeing and I just want to feel good again. I don't drink caffeine anymore. I exercise everyday. I eat healthy. My only vice is sweets and I don't really overdo that. It just sucks right now and I don't have any joy or hope. Intellectually I now I have a lot to be grateful for.