That's actually really helpful to me. I feel like people keep saying it doesn't seem like I knew him for long, but we were together daily for months since we live in the same complex, so I felt like we got to know each other more than a typical couple that would just dating. Even after I found out about his use we kept in touch because I do care about him as a person. I think he felt so ashamed that he pushed me away and didn't want me to experience him using/interfere with his drug use. I still pray for him daily. I have a really active social life, so things haven't changed all that much in my day to day life other than him not being around. I just miss talking to him. He's a good guy with some ugly demons to face.