Originally Posted by gelfling
...The only thought that continually goes through my head is that I need to clean my house from a spiritual standpoint. Does that make sense to anyone? ...
Oh YES! That makes perfect sense to me! I've felt the need to do that (+ DONE it) several times in my recovery. It "looks" different each time, but has always helped (if only a little). Maybe - if nothing else it's a way to really acknowledge that 1) there was some 'really icky' stuff happening - and - 2) it's time to heal now.
Be gentle with yourself.
Bright Blessings,
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