Originally Posted by KTB5000

Yea, it was rough day. I'm really depressed. Only had 3 hours asleep. I missed church because I talked myself out it by convincing myself I wasnt dressed fancy enough. Ive never been to church on Easter before, so all I could dwell on is how out of place I would feel. Familiar pattern. That was hard for me to deal with. Not stepping up the courage to stop driving around and get out the car. I ended up just taking my son to McDonald's and thought hard about buying a bottle of red wine. Just drink bottle down quickly and catch a buzz, then I'll stop for good. Crazy. I didnt buy the bottle.