90 days and mixed feelings
I havent really posted much on here, but Im another 90 days sober.
Ive done this before a few times. Im glad Im here and Im glad Im sober.
I'll be honest, whilst I dont feel like drinking right now, I know its a matter of time before I have a drink. I find myself planning it and I just cant help it. I cannot imagine or fathom a world or a life where I can never drink again.
I also feel like I dont fit in with the recovery community, but I recognise this place is a useful resource for many.
It might be because Im from the UK- Ive never attended meetings, done the 12 steps, the big book, had a sponsor, embraced religion or any of that other stuff. I've always just done my own thing, and its worked for me when ive needed it to.
Hope everyone's ok.