I ain't no superhero
But surely I can find the powers on myself to get this right. The sooner the better.
I swore to never drink again here like many others but came unstuck. I came to write here but couldn't do it.
I was caught off guard by some relationship problems, for lack of better explanation, and I didn't have the tools or strength or motivation to just sleep that afternoon off.
It's nobodies fault but my own. I am the only one who can change me. I now walk the tightrope between drinking some and falling again. The Fatigue and lack of control surely will push me over tomorrow, next week or 2 weeks tops.
That one choice to drink that one beer.
anyhow, tomorrow is a new day and I need to get back on solid land and keep learning how the drink will not help. It almost does nothing after time but make me want more.