Taking alcohol out of your life is a big change. Some people seem to quit and that's all there's to it, but then many people don't tell you all that's going on inside. There is no reason why you shouldn't be on a roller coaster right now. Sobriety is a big change to an alcoholic. And early on, your alcoholic voice is shouting at you not to get sober. Part of you (your alcoholic voice) doesn't want to change. It wants to return to the familiar. The familiar for an alcoholic is a dark and self defeating place, but it is familiar. At least you know what to expect, even if you don't like it.