Getting better but things getting worse
Today I work on day 313,
I do understand that every relationship has its ups and downs. But there has been alot of downs as I became sober with in my life. I'm not saying that things will get better if I start using again. Now that I am sober I realized that alot of the times I used was to drown out these problems. Most of of them being with my spouse. The good times that we do have is great and I know alot of it has to do with my new outlook on life. But with recovery has also come healthy boundaries. And I am working on keeping these boundaries. But when does this love and compassion become a problem when the people you share with are taking advantage? At this time I'm really considering divorce I have been over the years but my addiction has made the mental abuse from her tolerable because I blamed myself for most cause of my addiction. I love myself and shouldn't have the person I love do this.