YAY! 4 days is awesome.
I think about how difficult it was to get through the initial stages of not drinking, like getting sober, and I just cannot entertain going back. It was monumental work. You could find some of the threads where I was an absolute mess of anxiety. Not to scare you here
I gave it everything I had and when I had nothing at all to give this community stepped in and gave me hope, laughter and really helped me to make it through. Lean on us. Lean into this community for support. I promise you life does get better. This side of the road is worth being on. You can do this! You are doing this.