Playing the tape forward
I am happy to say that I a back on day 7. However I am very nervous... My wife and kids are going to visit my in-laws for the next 3 days, and I’ll be home alone to watch the pets... Historically during these times I would go on a total bender, and find myself in trouble.
I can’t let this happen this time. I am attempting to play the table forward.
1 beer and I will be off to the races for the next 3 days.. drugs will inevitably come around, I’ll gamble uncontrollably, and spend lots of money... worst of all I will not be in the condition to take care of my pets... I will then wake up Monday morning in a depression filled haze, and be useless at work until Wednesday. Before my family arrives home on Tuesday, I’ll have to do a deep clean to make sure I didn’t leave any evidence around....
All right, I feel a little bit better about being able to stay sober. I can’t let the above mentioned scenario occur.