Long days
Hi, today is feeling like a bad day for me, I’ve felt vulnerable the last couple of days but today I feel at my lowest. I have been sober for nearly 3 and half years and I SO know it’s one day at a time but the days at the moment feel sooooo long. I’ve had dark days before and have got through them but this time it feels so strong, it worries me. My head says that I WILL NOT have a drink but ‘what if’ also crosses my mind. I don’t want to go back to how I was, I can’t do that for the sake of my children, I nearly lost so much. I feel like i’m treading water. The dreams that I have about having a drink are happening more often also. It feels so lonely at the moment, especially with this pandemic going on. Sorry for being so bloody flat. Cocojanie x