Originally Posted by
JamesW 
Thanks Dee
I realise that much, if not most of my anger is really about my choices, I allowed myself to be in situations/friendship which were essentially toxic. Any sensible sober person could have told me so, but I ploughed on regardless, but always half drunk, or totally drunk.
I can relate to being upset over choices I made while in active drinking. I still occasionally have some flashbacks but someone on here used a good way to describe. It’s like your in a car and your past is your past, it’s still there and you can look at the rear view mirror but really concentrate on looking forward while driving which is your present and future. The longer you are sober the choices you make will be authentic sober you. No self doubting if it was booze or hangover related. No more compromising choices to ensure booze is still available (like I used to ensure little as possible after hours work because I knew I’d be passed out). We build up these experiences and regain our confidence in decision making. They aren’t always going to be the best perfect choices but we no longer have doubt in them because booze was a factor and we can learn better and react better.