Kudos to you on 19 days.. That’s a huge accomplishment. I agree, we have to go through that baggage and find the root cause and throw it away.
There’s a great book called, “Drop the rock,” that speaks to these things and how we do away with these things. As mentioned above, take it slow and steady. Stay busy, stay sober, One day at a time. Wishing you the best, Friend!! You got this!!