I can relate... I’m on day 53 and am 59 yo. I abstained from age 52 to 56, but got complacent and made the mistake of thinking I beat it and could control it. That was a huge mistake. By 2020 I was up to almost a fifth of vodka at least 4-5 days a week.
I will make it work this time, getting too old to meet mucking with my health. I quit smokes at 49 and booze at 59.
Life is better when you can sleep normal, think straight and make good decisions.