Almost 5 months ago I was in the worst place imaginable. I honestly didn't recognize who I was or how I even got to the place I was in. I was desperate for change and scared out of my mind to change. It was all so terrifying. I decided that I needed to "ground" myself.
My plan of action for relief:
I structured my mornings to wake in sobriety by logging on here.
Run or weights before going to my full time job. Even if my head said otherwise.
Started eating breakfast before work.
Made sure to eat enough food to keep level through the day. I was all over the place.
After work, I drank hot tea and took a bath or shower to get the day off and destress.
Ate dinner.
Logged onto an AA meeting with SR close by.
Participated on SR until I fell asleep.
This was my routine every single day for months. It was tough going at first. My head all over the place.
The structure allowed the light to come into my days. I started to feel happier, stable and cared for because I was caring for myself in a way that truly mattered. I also firmly believed that I would get better. It took me awhile. It took a lot of energy. The result is someone who has sobriety and is content in sobriety. Sure, I have my days. We all do. The hard days are a breeze compared to the hungover/ alcohol induced days.
This forum saved my ass quite a few times. People helped me when I was really struggling. I only needed to reach out. Please know you can get better and you will get better. Get yourself a plan and stick to it no matter what.
Structure yourself in a way where alcohol has no room in your life.
I know you can do this!