Be123's first few sentences sum up how it was for me too. Saying definitely not drinking today when waking up feeling bad in the morning but passing out on the sofa at night after drinking again in the evening and so it went on.
My last drunk made me feel very sick the next day, both in body and in remembering my behaviour the previous day. I could not have drunk for a few days even if I'd wanted to. So I got a head start on the AV in a way and got a few days in before stupid cravings came back. Then it was will power, reading lots and being kind to myself. Now, I'm in my 4th year sober. I read something here at SR every day just to remind myself to be grateful. I do not crave alcohol anymore. This can be you too.