Thanks, Dee.... I want to crack this nut, I know I can, I know I will, I know I'm able.
I sort of allowed myself to give up.... I can't tell for sure whether it was shame, abandonment of self, a simple desire to avoid confronting myself with the obvious or a basic matter of addiction winning but I'm glad my friend's words brought my attention to my reality. I'm glad I came here this morning to grab a link to one of the famous "Moderation" posts to share with my friend.... I'm glad that led me to check in here, I'm glad I am still seeking freedom.