HELLLLOOOOOO everyone. Well, where did I go?
I got 'busy' and I got 'distracted' and I got caught by the 'screw it' monster and here I am......
Another Day One.
Another cycle of rationalizing and 'moderating' and letting life carry me away with the tides of mindless routine.
Last night a good friend of mine shared with me that he's come to the conclusion he 'can't stop drinking' - and that what he's been doing for some time amounts to an extended period of failed attempt to moderate.
Which shone a light on where I am with this cannabis curse.
Thank you for checking in. I have a cold, so between that and my own sense of frustration and disappointment with myself, I feel a bit down and hopeless this morning.
I know it's not hopeless. I know I'm not hopeless. But I am tired of this dumb game.
So.
Today, Day One.... again.