Yeah, I still have a bunch of good memories of drinking and even from the last bender I went on(that convinced me to stop) I had fun the first night at the bar but not the following 3 days of non stop vodka drinking by myself. When I stopped drinking, I said goodbye to that period of my life. I knew I would not be able to go back to that time again and I was ok with accepting that it was over and time to move on. Even if I could continue, I realized a long time ago how lame I was going to look if I was still doing the same things like dancing with younger women in a bar when I was old enough to be their dad, or trying to fight someone half my age after a pointless argument. I have no wife or kids so I used to use the excuse that I took care of my own responsibilities but I came to the realization that I had another responsibility to family, friends, work and my girlfriend that I needed to embrace and its been a choice I dont regret.