Welcome! You are fortunate to live in such a beautiful place (I used to live in Denver years ago). Please spend some time reading the threads here in the Newcomers Forum. Then if you can relate to what all of us drunks have said, and how much our lives improved after we quit drinking, join the January or Feb 2021 class. You will get tons of support. You can totally get sober and have a great life, but first and foremost, you have to want it.