Keep on keepin' on!
The struggle is real, y'all! At least initially. Getting sober can be painful in so many ways.
That being said, you can move mountains if you put your mind to it (metaphorically). One small step at a time. Lean on this community. Lean on the couch. Lean on whatever....Just don't drink or drug. Soon enough that pain dissipates. Those hard moments turn into days and then weeks and then months and then.......You know! It does get easier. There is freedom. There is joy. There is a healthy life to be lived and there is a love found for that healthier way.
You are not alone. We can do this together!
(Im not one for pep talks but I am a Cheerleader for sobriety on this forum. GOOOOOO, YOU!)