Obsession is soooo much worse when drinking and in early days, Robbie.
It gets better but it does take some time and suffering through the discomfort of the spinning brain. It is bad in early days. Can you plug in to some online AA meetings?
I had daily lists and plans. I listened to quiet music. I shopped, prepped, cooked and cleaned up. I did projects. I took walks - every day - in the rain. I'm in Seattle so it rains a lot.
That obsession/compulsion is fueled by alcohol. Seriously.
I don't drink. No matter what. No thought, no other person, no situation.