I too just recently started taking Suboxone and will be tapered off 2 mg/month. Your story is almost identical to mine. Tried rehab once, and relapsed for 4 months or so. Then caught myself on the downward spiral and realized that i was even depressed while high. That's when i knew it was time to seek help. I tried going cold turkey again (like i did in rehab) but after 3 days I simply couldn't take it anymore and gave up. After a few of these instances, I decided to try something completely new. So I gave the doc a visit and got prescribed to suboxone. This was on thursday but i have been clean since wednesday. Best of luck to you Jaws. I would love to keep in touch with you being as we are on similar paths.. perhaps we could help one another.