Originally Posted by
FlyingDutchMan 
We’re here for support if you need it Owl, and I am kinda curious as to what happened. Going by your posts, I felt I was going to cave in sooner than you would. Hope all is well with you!
it turns out that the addictive, impulsive, the reflexive won out. No excuses. I felt really good and had every reason and every bit of evidence to arm myself with and..... nope.