I've quit many times, for years at a time. Right now life has very little joy or hope and I need that to change. I'm tired of the rollercoaster of quitting, letting my guard down then finding myself back at bottom again, fatter, out of shape depressed, lonely, and older. Drinking was like a high school friend to celebrate being free of school or drinking to party and talk about big future plans. Magical thinking binge drinking. time to get real and find a way out and up.