Quit or die, it was as simple as that. I was in a bad situation, real bad. I had a taste of recovery at 31, but never really wanted it fully, thought I could still have my cake and eat it so to speak.
Decided to give it a proper go at 36. I'm 38 now and sober nearly 20 months this time around. Life has it's ups and downs (as has it with non addicts too) but overall
things are a hell of a lot better than when I was a drinking man so yea, it was worth it.