Hi Kimmie and congratulations on your sobriety so far.
You are using this forum exactly the way it was intended so have no fear.
Your posts are an encouragement to me and other alcoholics who may be where you are right now.
Fear and Guilt very often haunts the alcoholic and can help to perpetuate the vicious cycle of drinking.
AA helped me to break that cycle by showing me how to let go of the past,make amends for my mistakes and look forward to the future.
Many times it is fear of the future and regret for the past that makes living in the present unbearable.
You have shown great courage by even admitting that you need to stop drinking.With committment you dont ever have to pick up a drink again.
Peter.