Day 4
Still holding on. Was ok until early morning. Even made a trip to the grocery store, walked past the wine a little quicker than usual.
Early morning, lying in bed, mind started going. Haven't fully accepted the huge changes in my life, committing to my SO, retiring, moving...I miss my friends. Sometimes I miss suburban living with food delivery, grocery store a couple blocks...my new life, and it us pretty, it's 10.2 miles to the nearest store. I.5 hours to a mall. So I woke up questioning myself, which I now understand is a trigger for me to use wine to turn off the brain. It's hard not to feel stuck. I could leave, but it would take all I have to move again and start over.
I need to hang on to one day at a time, get back to thengym and plan for when the weather gets warm again so I can get outside more..
Thank you.