thank you Advbike---another day down. 8 days without a drink and a week removed from my ER visit. What a difference a week and no alcohol can make. Wow. I can't even imagine what a month a year etc. can make on my body and my mind. Have not had 1 urge or craving. I know that this will come, but while it doesn't, it feels good. 1 thing I've noticed however, is that my mind is now filled with thoughts of work, stressors, anxieties, and worry for the future. (normal stuff, nothing too heavy....yet). Oh how my nightly gin let me say "eff it" to everything that everyone else used to stress over.
I feel determined, but honestly, not very courageous. I was at the point of a bayonet and I submitted.