thankyou, Venus. A much better way to look at it all.
and it’s true I was able to do so much more today than I ever would have been able to when I was chained to alcohol. Even if there were moments when I just wanted to stop, to turn the volume down, to hide for a bit. Great meals - not just bare minimum efforts, selecting & decorating a makeshift Xmas tree (okay it is actually a dead branch, but hey. 😂
family beach walk, sandcastles, shopping, throwing & catching footballs, jumping on trampoline, throwing ball/sticks for dog, etc. I even showed my son the day counting app & told him I had stopped drinking and gaming. He wanted to know why I was still smoking. 😂 but he is generally happy - but wary, I think. My daughter , too.
So yeah, good day, and hopefully it will get easier.