Hood, I honestly couldn't tell you that answer, maybe it's because I have been such a failure before I just think if I don't talk about it it might just go away, I know that's not the answer to this, believe me I don't want to drink again, to be honest I wasn't drinking for pleasure, I'd open a bottle of gin half fill the glass put in a splash of mixer and down it, I could of finished that bottle in 45 minutes, on a good day I'd get on with life and try to pretend I wasn't drinking, on a bad day we would argue about me drinking, I'd lie, and feel guilty but not guilty enough to stop, so this time I'm doing it for me, I'm 49 and would like a normal quiet easy life, so I suppose, it's just he never mentioned it and neither did I