Thanks Venus. Are you having a better day?
Sorry I seem to have been complaining all week about feeling ill. Is this prolonged withdrawal? Mentally I feel good so thats a bonus. It's just I never felt ill like this when drinking. Why do I feel so rubbish now. Not that drinking will make me feel any better but this is how it starts. the thoughts, the what ifs. the whats the point in not drinking if you feel rubbish all the time anyway.
I know it's AV talk and I don't want a drink. just thinking out loud really. I really don't want a drink. I['ve not had any thoughts of dirnking at all. it's just now led in bed the niggling thoughts jumped out