Thanks Hevyn.
I feel utterly ashamed of myself and like a complete failure I only two and a bit days . I work long days and right at the end of my shift we had 2 emergencies that weren't straightforward for several reasons, and I had to stay. I felt tired and overwhelmed and am now i'm drinking wine.
I'm so annoyed with myself, I keep reinforcing my subconscious beliefs that I cannot quit every time I stop the give in. I would usually pretend it have never happened but I need someone somewhere to know what I did. I need to read this tomorrow and feel deep regret.