Thank Tootsl1 - You are correct I have been thinking about it for a long time. I really started to make progress a year ago and had many more sober days than drunk ones after last November but this fall I slipped back into drinking. Not heavy at first but then a couple two week binges the last one ending last Sunday. I know I am an alcoholic but in the past have rationalized that now I can handle it. I do know that I can’t but still wanted to try. I am hopefully past that point this time. I know what alcohol does to my body and mind. I lived really healthy during my 4 month sober stretch and even drinking on and off during the summer but in October that stopped and I am determined to get it back again. My plan is a lot more SR and I think you are right that alcohol has to be off the table for me. That is where I am at and feeling good about it.