I'm guessing now I shouldn't have said to my mother I would go no contact with her. It seemed to come out of the conversation we had. There is more I want to apologise to my mother for but our relationship has seemed to be more difficult over the last three years as I think she needs support for living and was pulling me in to help with her housing. But then I was pulling her in to help with my anxiety and stress I have tried to help her with her housing but felt exhausted last year and felt I couldn't give anymore.
Sorry if this is ranting. I feel upset now so think I needed to write this. Life seems so hard but I'm trying to do right things.