I've just had a phone call from my mother. I have felt very angry, very heartbroken and a bit anxious today. In the phone call my mother said she was ringing me as she was a caring person ( I guess to say that I wasn't ) and wanted to check I'm alright .she sounded angry and she was sarcastic about something I said ( that I had spoken to someone to pray with). Now i feel upset, angry ( how dare she say I'm not caring) and some shock.
I'm not in a good place but thank you Sparklekitty and Smallbutmighty. I cried when I looked at your posts. I did have a look at the thread and I could see both myself and my mother in the thread. I can see myself as the codependent in other relationships i have had as well ( a best friend who drank more than i did) and an ex boyfriend who was struggling to give up. I'm so sorry now for how I have been - I don't know if I have been self-righteous but i am and have been very controlling - don't want to be but that is how I am now.
I feel shaken and scared of what is to come.