General unhappiness and irritability
I am really not happy with my life, my decisions, and my emotions lately.
I usually like this season, but am nothing but irritated with it this year. I would like ot skip Christmas entirely. It makes me irate that I cant buy gifts for people due to my financial situation. I didnt get a Christmas bonus for the first time in 8 years. That bonus was equal to 2 weeks pay, and has always been my Christmas money. I ma annoyed bc I am at this stupid job still, and when I sent my resume out in search of better opportunities, Ive had no response.
Im pissed that I am surrounded by selfish people and addicts, who generally contribure to my unhappiness instead of happiness. Im mad that I cant separate myself from them permanently and continue to allow myself to feel this way.
Im tired of bullsh** and swear the nex ttime someone patronizes me or asks a favor, I am going to lose it.
Im just in a bad mood. Insight anyone? ideas as to how I can get past this feeling of disappointment and anger?