YES to what Be123 said. This is a very thought provoking topic. Thanks for starting it, RAB.
And many kudos on 100 days of being sober!
Getting sober, for me, wasn’t a huge sudden GREAT life changing event at first. It’s the little things that start to add up. Being TRULY mentally present for my loved ones in times of joy or crisis is one thing I appreciate now.
I didn’t realize what a BURDEN my alcoholism was to my family and friends, the exhaustion of trying to cover my tracks etc. etc.
Give yourself more time to appreciate what you’ve accomplished by staying sober!
My anxiety and panic attacks disappeared after about 4 months of sobriety. Hopefully, you too will feel better soon.