Originally Posted by
rainyengland 
I’m so angry all the time , just want revenge on everyone who lied and wronged me even if it’s detrimental to myself or my family feel like screaming and crying
Oh how I can relate, rainyengland, I did the same. I call it self-sabotage, the drinking, the drink fuelling the feelings of anger and wishes for revenge: a bitter cycle where I poisoned myself and the the wrong-doers weren't affected, oblivious, which incensed me more.
I read the Spirituality Thread on SR and thought of you when I read this, it reflects my experience, and it's hard to do, but still doable, I get to choose where my focus lies:
Originally Posted by
Ann Elder’s Meditation of the Day September 18
“I walk in and out of many worlds.” –Joy Harjo, CREEK/CHEROKEE
In my mind are many dwellings. Each of the dwellings we create ourselves – the house of anger, the house of despair, the house of self pity, the house of indifference, the house of negative, the house of positive, the house of hope, the house of joy, the house of peace, the house of enthusiasm, the house of cooperation, the house of giving. Each of these houses we visit each day. We can stay in any house for as long as we want. We can leave these mental houses any time we wish. We create the dwelling, we stay in the dwelling, we leave the dwelling whenever we wish. We can create new rooms, new houses. Whenever we enter these dwellings, this becomes our world until we leave for another. What world will we live in today?
Creator, no one can determine which dwelling I choose to enter. No one has the power to do so, only me. Let me choose wisely today.