I'm sorry I missed your post Eve. I believe that anyone can get sober and stay that way but it takes a lot of effort.
sometimes it gets down to what are we prepared to do to stop drinking and how far are we prepared to go to change?
I hope you decide to add some more things to your recovery plan - maybe more support, and using it, or maybe more changes to the way you deal with lifes problems?
I believe you can do this
It's never too late to start writing your Chapter Two.
D