Originally Posted by
CitizenSober 
I think you miss my point. I'm saying that alcohol has a metaphysical power....
My point is that do to my fragile mental state post detox ... my brain is quite literally broken. The problem isn't what I fear it's that I now i have fear and paranoia.
Allow me to try again then. When you drank, you still had fears, you just didn't care because you were drunk. Am I on point?
Like I mentioned earlier, Life is not for the meek and everyone has fears. Maybe that's why we're all endowed with emotions in the first place, to make us aware of - stuff. If your fear is the basis for your sobriety (you're afraid to have another seizure) then I'd have to say your fear is doing you a favor.
I doubt your brain is broken. It's just not saturated with alcohol anymore. And perhaps part of you misses that. It takes a lot longer to get used to something new when we didn't welcome it in the first place.
As to your paranoia - have you considered seeing a Psychiatrist about it?
How'd I do? Any better this time?