Hmm, that is definitely one take on it. I know you mentioned you do not believe in AA, but AA takes away all that grandiose thinking about alcohol and replaces it with a desire to live my best life. Alcohol to me is a lie, it does not make my life better. In fact my relationship with alcohol is almost solely negative. Broken relationships, failing heath, trouble with the law, isolation, depression. Now do I LOVE the feeling of slipping away from reality with a good drunk? You betcha! But I’ve come to associate drinking with far more negative than positive. To me the alcohol isn’t as powerful when I am in a healthy mindset. When I am not working on myself and I get back into living selfishly alcohol’s power increases dramatically.
But great job on your sobriety. That is more sobriety than I’ve ever had, so it sounds like you’ve figured something out!!